Spiritual Roller-Coaster

It’s been quite some time since I last posted. If you asked how has my life been, I can only say, “Busy!” I am now on the final journey of my masters – the thesis. I am not a very good student, neither a very intelligent one. Coming up with this thesis is terribly daunting. I guess I can only take one step at a time…

It has been a roller-coaster journey spiritually for me. Not many will know about this cos I did not share with anyone previously. I think I hit the lowest point in my spiritual life. I have been pondering over some issues and was unable to come to terms with certain things. I found myself asking God, “Why? Why? Why?” Many a times, I found myself becoming more and more disillusioned. I even wondered if God had forgotten about me. Whilst I struggled with the issues, I kept reminding myself that I still needed to keep in touch with His word. Incidentally, a cell group member shared this during BS last Friday, “Be careful when you don’t go to church or don’t go for cell group, that’s when Satan will attack.” Being very mindful of this, I continued with my routine, but deep down inside I was struggling.

However, like I always say, God is good. Slowly and patiently, He showed me that He is good and will be there for me. I found myself being more able to accept some circumstances. I am still unable to explain why, and I still wonder, but once again, I’m assured that my Heavenly Father loves me. I think I still wish to get an answer, but before He gives me the answer, I know that I will continue to serve Him and keep close to Him. 🙂